i had a heart-to-heart talk with my girlfriend and it seems to her that we were too dependent on each other, that we should give each other some space.. that he's pulling himself away from reality, that it's a lot of crap about too much workload in school, that i'm giving too much concern to him and he's taking advantage of it... loads of things actually.
right now, i'd probably won't call him, if he wasn't looking for me. perhaps don't meet him tomorrow and a few weeks later.. i've gotta be tough on him now. i'm gonna save the wallet and key pouch till he gets better. he don't wanna talk about it.. but wtf?? he didn't get enough space for himself?? why didn't he tell me so?? why? why he didn't wanna talk? why is he so stressed up about school? what is he so afraid of?? i thought we were great together.. but it seems like our lifestyle is killing him bit by bit. i don't understand..
it's really frustrating, to not talk about it. i'm too tired to think about it now. i just want him to get well and go to school. end of discussion.
"the more you change, the less you feel" - Tonite, tonite; Smashing Pumpkins, MCIS