i ought to be ashame of myself. for doing this to my beloved one. to the apple of my eye. to my darling who stood there naked in front of me. am i controlling you? am i really possessive towards you? i always feel jealous whenever you had fun. i feel jealous cuz you're out going places while i'm stuck here at work. i don't like this feeling especially when i know you've made plans without letting me know about it. i've always wanna be there. and i hate it when i can't be there and when i'm stuck somewhere. and what i hate the most is your working hours. it's not the same as mine. which means, it gave you more free time during the day. and you left me me me out cuz obviously, i'm at work.
i dowanna hurt you. but somewhere i'm hurting myself to hurt you. i don't know why i'm feeling like this in the first place.